Old crush

 Dear diary.

So... high school has started today for my school and I'm now in my second and graduating year. And its so far... alright I guess. Well, there's this guy I used to have a crush on in year 1 of high school for around 7 months, and I was happy when I stopped crushing on him. But now I kind of miss it. The adrenaline, the shyness, being close to him. I guess it has gotten weird between me and him cause now I feel too akward to approach him, partly because I haven't spooken to him since before summer even though we're friends on snap. He just stopped snapping a couple of months before summer break and now its kinda weird to see him again.

 Am I trying to get over him? Kinda. Which means a no. I haven't tried. Well, I guess I technically have but it doesn't feel like that. I guess I just wish I could go back to when we actually spoke to him and the good feelings I got from doing it. He looks happier and more relaxed after the summer as well so I guess its a good thing that we haven't spoken to each other. Feels a bit strange still though. Like something is missing that I can't have back.

Fred out.

Server

 Dear Diary.

I've gotten home safely with the flightt, thankfully. I still miss the guy I met though, he was so sweet. I should have asked for his number or snap but I felt that would be weird. So, I'm now just in my bedroom, doing noting. Or, I am doing something. I'm writing to you. And I'm planning on getting a server for people who is like me. People who loves deeply. I don't know if I should do it. It would have been great if I got tips on what channels should be in the server and people who wants to join. Maybe you do. I hope you can give me a sign if you do.

From Fred 
 

Crush

 Dear Diary. 

Today has been incredible. I saw my vacation crush for the last time before I leave tomorrow. Oh god I'm gonna miss it. He has a sleave tattoo on his right forearm, stubbles on his face as if he hadn't shaven for a while, and hair short enough to have not been cut for maybe less than a month. His sweet smile and friendliness. He even pointed to me while looking into my eyes. I tried my best to not blush but, I don't think that help. And I don't think my guy friend has gotten a liking to hear about this guy. But he's so sweet and proper gentleman. He recognized me. I know I know, I'm a sucker romance. But hey, it could have been worse. Just look at Knox Overstreet from Dead poets society. If I ever go that far I would either bury myself or let my friends hit me in the head with a pillow. Yet, I'm a hopeless romantic that are still single. I mean, there has been people who has asked me out but, never someone I've fancied. And that sucks. Either way, I think I'll go to bed. I have a plane to be well rested for.

From Fred.