Old crush

 Dear diary.

So... high school has started today for my school and I'm now in my second and graduating year. And its so far... alright I guess. Well, there's this guy I used to have a crush on in year 1 of high school for around 7 months, and I was happy when I stopped crushing on him. But now I kind of miss it. The adrenaline, the shyness, being close to him. I guess it has gotten weird between me and him cause now I feel too akward to approach him, partly because I haven't spooken to him since before summer even though we're friends on snap. He just stopped snapping a couple of months before summer break and now its kinda weird to see him again.

 Am I trying to get over him? Kinda. Which means a no. I haven't tried. Well, I guess I technically have but it doesn't feel like that. I guess I just wish I could go back to when we actually spoke to him and the good feelings I got from doing it. He looks happier and more relaxed after the summer as well so I guess its a good thing that we haven't spoken to each other. Feels a bit strange still though. Like something is missing that I can't have back.

Fred out.